matt and i flew "home" for christmas. on christmas.
we walked in the front door and took my mom completely by surprise.
it was awesome.
:]
holidays are stressful and families are imperfect. and mine is no exception. but i love them so, so much. despite the misunderstandings, the differing opinions.
after coming back to washington though, i just can't shake this feeling of home not really feeling like home.
right now, washington feels most like home. but i don't think it will feel like home always. close friends are moving in the next few years, closer to their own families, to where jobs are, to where the navy sends them.
and when they're gone? will washington still feel the same? and how long do we have before the navy sends us somewhere else?
for certain, georgia no longer feels like home. the small town i grew up in feels much smaller. i don't think i could live there now.
is that terrible to say? i feel like it must be offensive to the people that still live there. i don't mean it in a negative way. i only mean that i have changed and the things that are important to me don't really exist there. if i could choose an ideal place to live, it wouldn't be there.
so... where, then?
i feel like i belong... no where.
it's weird.
^^ photos from our trip to asheville, nc and the biltmore estate.
5 comments:
i know exactly how that feels having moved around for 20 something years myself but home was where sarge was, period. it's SO good that you went for the holidays though. maybe one time i'll go when you do and i can see you and matt. i'd love that. or of course you are always welcome here.
thursday for the dishes!
love, g
xoxoxoxoxo
I totally know what you mean. Whenever we spend time where we grew up I'm reminded that I could never live there again, as nice as it is to visit every now and again. At this point 'home' to me is wherever Rob is, but I'm feeling more and more like we should actually start building a 'home' instead of wondering where the hell we'll be from one year to the next.
Ramble ramble, love you, bye. :)
I've been wondering a lot about "home" lately. Especially since I have big decisions about orders and moving and...well...life...coming up.
We need to get together soon. :-)
I like your Grammy's answer... hopefully for you Home is always where Matt is. Love your pictures, they are so fun. Are you shooting much? I have kind of lost the jazz for it right now. Even talked myself out of a new camera. Hope its just a "block" or phase.
have a great day!
I totally get this. Makes perfect sense to me. I think maybe it's an unusual thing ... and happened to us because we have such awesome families we actually like being with ... and so many people don't. Just think of it like this ... you have two homes, the one you left and the one you make ... and sometimes it's okay just to be a nomad.
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